Apple co-founder Steve Jobs passed away at age 56 in 2011, it is said Steve left behind a deathbed essay about the meaning of life. Whether true or not, it has a profound impact on how I feel about my life and this New Year ahead of me. Here they are…. Steve Jobs below…
I reached the pinnacle of success in the business world. In others’ eyes, my life is an epitome of success. However, aside from work, I have little joy. In the end, wealth is only a fact of life that I am accustomed to.
At this moment, lying on the sick bed and recalling my whole life, I realize that all the recognition and wealth that I took so much pride in, have paled and become meaningless in the face of impending death.
In the darkness, I look at the green lights from the life supporting machines and hear the humming mechanical sounds, I can feel the breath of god of death drawing closer…
Now I know, when we have accumulated sufficient wealth to last our lifetime, we should pursue other matters that are unrelated to wealth…
Should be something that is more important: Perhaps relationships, perhaps art, perhaps a dream from younger days.
Non-stop pursuing of wealth will only turn a person into a twisted being, just like me.
God gave us the senses to let us feel the love in everyone’s heart, not the illusions brought about by wealth.
The wealth I have won in my life I cannot bring with me. What I can bring is only the memories precipitated by love.
That’s the true riches which will follow you, accompany you, giving you strength and light to go on.
Love can travel a thousand miles. Life has no limit. Go where you want to go. Reach the height you want to reach. It is all in your heart and in your hands.
What is the most expensive bed in the world? Sick bed…
You can employ someone to drive the car for you, make money for you but you cannot have someone to bear the sickness for you. Material things lost can be found. But there is one thing that can never be found when it is lost – Life.
When a person goes into the operating room, he will realize that there is one book that he has yet to finish reading – Book of Healthy Life.
Whichever stage in life we are at right now, with time, we will face the day when the curtain comes down.
Treasure Love for your family, love for your spouse, love for your friends.
Treat yourself well. Cherish others.
Balance isn’t something out there .. Balance is created by you… And where you are now.
Take insights from 2016 and ask yourself, what did I enjoy? I did I learn? What do I want more of in my life?
I believe in the present moment but I don’t always accept what is in my present moment. I drift off in thoughts like a day dream rather than feel the pain of a yoga pose I don’t enjoy or put an extra 10 minutes into making my Monday night dinner more beautiful.
I’ve started this New Year with a fever and unwell, I’m still recovering and all the sickness is nearly gone. I feel now ground and trusting at this time, very accepting of myself. I have no diet I to try or no new resolution no new fade…. maybe its because I had a fever, maybe its an effect from all the meditation I did. I do have a vision of how I want to feel very day and be very day living inside my skin.
Life’s most essential needs of a healthy mind, body and spirit brings in self empowerment, confidence and happiness in everyday living. Healing is an act of allowing something to revert to it’s natural state.
Good health brings the greatest quality of life with balance it’s key..
2x medium eggs
1x medium banana
a little cinnamon
liquid vanilla extract
Blend in a mixer – I used a hand mixer – then cook as you would any pancake mixture. I used coconut oil. Enjoy
A digestive and immunity boosting spritz recipe from Jamu Kitchen
I made this at home its very light and so good I hope you make this for yourself.
1 tbsp Apple Cider Vinger
1 tbsp Ginger – I grated mine and squeezed the juice out
1 tbsp Seedless Tamarind Pulp
1 tbsp Honey
Stir. Then Dilute 1 tbsp of the mixture with sparkling water. Enjoy
It’s New Year and I ask you, when did you last try something new? Rather than food restrictions or a list of food your not going to eat for a while…. why not change things around a little and try something new… I tried new to me in December a boxing class and before I got a fever I tried a rose latte…. both where divine….
After a boxing class I feel so alive, full of wowness because it’s so different to me my mind works so much better too.
Rose latte so feminine so full of flavor while I sat and reflected who 2016 had been.
Have you tried something new lately….? Now is’t a time for diets or restrictions it’s time for exploring what you want in your life.
There are cookies that are better for your body, I don’t believe date heavy treats better than refined sugar choices. With Christmas over and people saying things like ‘time to be healthy again’I don’t believe Christmas or Christmas food is unhealthy. I don’t think treats made with large amounts of dates are a better choice. Diet food is even worse…
Cravings set in quite fast after Christmas different types of cravings, how we spend time thinking about these feelings cravings is much more important to me. Than the food that’s been thought of…in the circle of repeating thoughts low self esteem is somewhere in there, with holding on inside to stop or control feelings from being expressed.
I know now happiness is a choice and it comes from the inside out so in this confusion of food, feelings and cravings. Something like what I have made can be in the middle, while our internal life balances out. Enjoying low refined sugar sweetened food made from oats and not refined flour, I’ve used a some shop brought chocolate from a brand I like. Feeling bad about having cravings is a waste of time, that is why I learnt to make my own treats because its empowering…..
Recipe will follow…..
This bright yellow winter porridge has been a delightful change for me over Christmas. Pumpkin puree and turmeric, cinnamon and nutmeg. with roasted figs and a chopped green apple.
Millet flakes 1/3 cup is a portion – note millet needs 3 times liquid so 1/3 of a cup 3 times – I use a low heat and find millet soaks up the liquid and if you need to add extra to create the consistence you enjoy eating
With about 1/2 of pumpkin puree, add coconut milk or rice milk or oat (its up to you)add 1 teaspoon cinnamon, turmeric and grate nutmeg – stir – I added a squeeze of rice syrup – warm this liquid it needs to be runny. Place your millet into a pan and add 3 times of this mixture. Stir and as it starts to look cooked have a taste, add more of spices or rice syrup. Because of the millet your porridge will have a sweet taste now just smooth out the flavors so you can enjoy this.
I use to hear people saying ‘Rebecca lives on another planet’ ‘Rebecca’s in her own world’ ‘ Rebecca does her own thing’ ‘Rebecca may never understand’ ‘Rebecca …’
I was use to feeling like I was on the outside of life, I thought it was normal. I want very one else to be the best they could be if that made them happy. That is how I managed the pain I felt from those commitments above…..
How I felt that pain was numb spacey pain but still deep, it was a present pain something I lived with like a really nice handbag that was very heavy. But because it was heavy and I carried it around with the greatest of ease.
This is a small snap shot at my old views of my internal pain, I was used to living with upsetting and confusing thoughts mixed with isolation, insomnia at times. Having difficulty concentrating and learning was my normal. My normal way of living my life in dissociated state.
Dissociated Living was my normal
I was so good at rules but would snap at some point. The rules where my safety in my confused mind. Holding myself out of life to scared of stepping in…. watching others live.
The pain I went through in the moments, days and years before I was told I had post-traumatic stress disorder are more than I can ever express there are too many….
The relief, the pain that followed the inner knowing this diagnosis was right… relief again and then the shock mixed with an understanding of why I felt so trapped, why my body doesn’t respond to anything negative or positive.
Feeling nervous of going backwards not having the clarity of thoughts to move forwards.. At the same time……
Life isn’t what it what you see, when looking at someone else from your outside to their inside…
I didn’t know I was living with symptoms …. Pain was normal … feeling trapped was normal…
Do you experience those fluttering feelings of fear in your belly?
How does it feel to say your name and not add your job tile or make a reference to your relationship status…
Who are you when you’re not trying to be someone? How does this feel?
If you can be your own definition of amazing? How does this feel?
Can you go 30 minutes or an hour not looking at your phone? How does this feel?
Control of outcomes in our outside lives is fantasy and imagination running wild inside the monkey mind of thoughts..
I’ve learnt and now believe we are here not to relive our hurts over and over again on repeat and rewind ….. we are here to learn to heal from our hurts and life lessons… our emotions are guide to new steps and path ways to creating a different future. Rather than using the same thinking for the same feelings recreating the same result. This is the recipe for more of the same stress the same unhappiness and staying in the same place…
Finding balance with no guilt with our choices helps balance feeling fears, scared and stuck. Feeling acceptance of our emotions meet them with kindness and compassion, so illness doesn’t kick in…. internal patterns learnt from childhood if you weren’t allowed to be yourself on any level. Some of us learnt to get sick to help us get what we need… this is also a survival technique a deep emotional survival technique from the people that Love us..
How’s your gut feeling? Are you feeling down? Or flat…
If you aren’t enjoying what you do… don’t do it..
I’ve learnt Balance is
To dance all night and go to your favourite workout or walk outside
Drink your favourite tipple and drink water a green smoothi or green juice
Eat chocolate (maybe learnt to make your own) and eat kale salads warm when your body needs it and other vegetables that take your fancy….
Wear high heels when you want extra sexiness and walk bare foot when you’re chilling (hopefully on grass)
Move around and so you can find your stillness
Embrace all sides of who you are – what do you enjoy? What brings you happiness?
When you feel high from happiness be brave when you feel low but allow and know it will pass and ask yourself what is this low feeling trying to show me…?
Breath feel – let go — do the next right thing – find a willingness to welcome in a new chapter